One of my biggest struggles in marriage, apart from submission, was forgiveness.
I can keep track records of everything. Literally every single detail including the shirt won, dress won, what was around, who walked by and the list goes on and on.
But that same strength of keeping records, was my weakness.
I kept record of every tiny spat, tiffs, hard rubs, and my heart grew bitter towards my husband. At some point I resented him[sad that I allowed myself to get there].
My husband on the other hand has a gift of letting go.
He hardly let’s another minute pass holding an offense.
Of course it doesn’t mean that he let’s people walk over him, but he deals with it, releases the offense and gets going.
I asked him to pray for me and teach me how to put the “handbrake” of forgiveness on.
At the same time, I asked the Lord to teach me how to let go of offenses.
It’s been an INTENTIONAL journey for me.
I deliberately choose to verbalize every hurt and say, “I choose to forgive you for doing a, b, c. “
It’s great how the Lord meets us at our point of need when we step out in faith.
With time, it became a part of me, I now no longer needed to verbalize it, but it flowed freely from a changed heart.
We have to let God deal with our habits to change our hearts.
God doesn’t want to just deal with our symptoms but the root cause of our spiritual illness. Bitterness stems out from a heart yoked to unforgiveness.
I can confidently say that forgiveness, as much as it never flows naturally out of me, it outpours from a heart filled to the brim with the fruit of Christ – because I choose to forgive.
Wives, do not let your husband’s shortcomings to title your marriage.
You too can learn from Christ.
To forgive is divine and without that, the heart falls short of intimacy, totally free to be soul naked and unashamed.