THE SEASON OF SINGLENESS – ON TRUST
The children of Israel often remind me of myself. As I read through and through about their journey from Egypt, through the wilderness, their covenant place at Mt. Horeb, how horribly they fell short of the glory of the Lord when they made an idol, all the way to Jordan, I can’t help see myself in them.
It paints a perfect picturesque description of my life.
See, they were in slavery for years. They sweated out their every meal. However desirable the melons and leeks were in Egypt, they earned them by blood. Bondage was their daily cup, until the Lord too gracious and abounding in love, rescued them from Pharaoh.
They witnessed God’s mighty arm in Egypt as he severely struck the Egyptians with the deadly plagues – and they, the Israelites, were safely tucked at Goshen.
They witnessed Pharaoh’s mighty chariots drown in the red sea, mangled by the mighty floods, washed down into the abyss, and obliterated from the face of the earth.
They matched through the walls of the Red sea as the Lord went before them as a pillar of cloud by day, and pillar of fire by night.
Still, they went on to complain in the wilderness. The wondrous jaw dropping signs from God could not suffice to save them from themselves. Jesus would be quick to tell them as He told His disciples – “Oh ye of little their faith.”
The confidence they had in God was fickle, based on circumstances not their devotion. They carried old flames all through their years in the wilderness, and failed to trust in the all-consuming fire of the Lord and His ability to save and sustain them.
Their clothes, never at once were they torn, but still wavered at every turn. They murmured when at their lowest ebb and quickly turned into other idols when God seemed to be silent.
How pretentious were their hearts, that they quickly turned to God when judgement was passed on them for yielding to the flesh’s rebellious state, then with the same spin turned against him.
They failed to trust in God. Yahweh who brought them out of Egypt.
Learning to trust God is an entirely different thing. It’s impossible to claim that you love someone without trusting them with your very soul. It is not possible to separate love from trust. They are not mutually exclusive.
Love trusts in HIM and in all things he does. It means literally putting yourself at the discretion of another. It means laying down your decisions, idiosyncrasies and will and cleaving to the other person’s.
The question is, do we love God enough to trust in Him through all seasons?
I loved Sunday school. I still love Sunday School and I can’t wait to start doing “Sunday school homework” with our children. I enjoyed every song and every memory verse that our Sunday school teachers made us memorize.
One of the songs that is still etched in me is “Trust and obey.”
“Trust and obey for there’s no other way, to be happy in Jesus, but to trust and obey…”
See, the words are TRUST and OBEY.
Am not so sure that I scored highly when it came to trusting and obeying Christ in my singleness. I wouldn’t say that I was entirely satisfied in that season for quite a while. That made my scores wanting.
My happiness was highly pegged on a relationship and with that idol towering high before me and my God, He didn’t seem sufficient enough then. I was emotionally wrecked.
It was until I reached the end of myself. Until I gave into His crushing. Until I gave into His pressing. Until I realized that I couldn’t live my life conjuring up other truths that seemed convenient for me. My reception to that truth, started the process of my freedom. I began walking wholeheartedly towards integrity.
Jesus said, “If you abide in my word, you are my disciples indeed. And you shall know the truth, and the truth shall set you free.” And when we make the simple, albeit difficult, decision to be honest with where we are, we can obey Jesus at each step of our discipleship journey, on our way to where we’re going.
We tap into the power of the Holy Spirit and, by His grace, we can respond to our past with His love, remain present where we are, and look to the future with hope.
Trusting and obeying Christ was absolute. There was no way around it.
Can you comprehend such a profound truth? In trusting our Savior, we don’t need to understand, we simply yield to His thresher.
See, we seek happiness from material things, we seek our happiness from spouses, gains of life, accolades, achievements and our relationships. We think and believe that all these will produce a lasting effect on our void souls yet, not even an aftertaste lingers.
The effect lasts not a minute later. We crumble when it all crumbles down because they were just but perfunctory crutches that we hang all on.
Anger and angst become the outcome of our misplaced priorities – for not trusting enough in HIM.
If only we trusted and obeyed in the season of singleness.
Relationships as good and fulfilling as they are, unless anchored on Christ, sustained by His grace, re-defined in His righteousness, it’s more like a body without a soul. It’s basically a walking corpse. It will smell like a corpse, eventually.
It might look all glittery on the outside, but it’s not, on the inside.
There’s no other way to be happy in the season of singleness without trusting, with your every bone and marrow, that God has His best for you. This realization will free you to walk in utter obedience to Him. You will pursue Christ and all godliness, no matter the cost, not because you think that God will reward your superficial acts, but because of your unending and unalienable, love for Christ.
Your love for Him will fuel your drive and He will divinely enable you to will do, and to do it all for His pleasure – Philippians 2:13.
When you trust in Him, you don’t need reasons to, you don’t need to understand, you don’t need to ask why. You will stand at the edge of a mountain and not fret, for you TRUST in Him to keep your feet from slipping.
To be happy in the Season of singleness, you will need to TRUST and OBEY.
God permanently inscribed his love for us on Calvary. At the cross, he crucified all reasons working against distrusting him. There, from our sinful selves we cease. There, from Jesus we simply take, joy and life and rest and peace. We can trust in Him through the pain, at the mountain tops and even through the shadow of the valley of death…
Oh, for grace to trust him more.
Singleness in Christ…